I'm here and I'm feeling pretty gnarly (the bad way), my foot is throbbing so hard, walking sucks to the point I've became numb to it and kinda accepted its gonna suck so just continue with it.
I have a headache which is coming and going, and I have had this really bad pain in my back for WEEKS now...in short I am in so much pain!!!
With this pain its actually changing my mood and just making me feel so fucking angry, which makes me feel even worse cause I start hating things that aren't even bothering me, but because it takes away from this crippling physical pain it becomes more prominent.
I'm trying not to let it get to me though, because I know there are so many other people out there going through MUCH worse, and honestly, apart from this pain I dont have anything else really to bother me.
I have a great job.
I have money again.
I have great friends.
And the biggest thing to happen to me since Saturday, this morning I got an email 100& confirming that I am getting to do a face-to-face interview with Josh Scogin of '68. So I mean I'm not feeling hopeless or down on myself: its just this pain that really is making everyday things like walking, and even putting on a pair of bastarding socks such a challenge!
I dont know, I just feel like posting on here helps me disperse all of the shit and helps me let go.
Whats next?
I'm not sure, hopefully I can get a doctors appointment tomorrow for some time this week so I can get some surgery sorted. I start proper full-on work on Wednesday, and a week tomorrow I get to head to Glasgow and see Converge live in whats gonna be an insane show! then the next night, I get to interview Josh and then watch '68 tear shit up live!
So things are looking good, just this broken toe in really making everything so much more difficult than it should be and making me pretty damn miserable.
Yes, that gif of Aubrey Plaza totally gets me cranked...
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