This is gonna be a blog that I write whenever I feel like it; its not based on music, clothing, or anything else I'm into - its about me. It will be scattered, will have random lyrics, gifs, pictures I dont know, just whatever I feel when writing it.
So its nearly midnight and I'm sitting here in my bed questioning whether or not £58 is a good deal for two awesome Joy Division tee's. I'm also feeling pretty damn great as of late, after having a real sucky time since about the end of Feburary I am now finally back to myself and feeling like a new me. With a new haircut, my dream job that I start on Monday, and the return of my spirit I feel like I'm finally content or even, dare I say it..."happy". Sure I am still harboring the usual regret and hate for some, but thats stuff everyone has right?
This whole shitty-time followed by a real joyous one is something thats been happening to me for years, maybe my entire life - I find myself in a place where I am just happy, then something happens that like scars me and then BAM like a George Michael cumshot, my life is all over the place, and eventually I find myself wallowing on the floor (unlike George's spunk, I normally dont find myself on the floor of men's toilets). So though I am feeling awesome right now, theres totally this apprehension inside that something real bad is about to happen.
Talking of George Michael, seriously how fucking awesome is he? Wham! in their hayday were incredible, and "Last Christmas" is THE Christmas anthem and song - go on and try to deny it! Then he totally went full-on gay and in the mid-90's turned into like a borderline male whore, talking about wanting to slam guys outside cause he's had enough of the kitchen table? Fucking George!!
Musically though, he was incredible, and maybe he still is - haven't listened to his new album. Music-wise though, this year for me has been incredible, after getting a record player for Christmas I have become even more of a music snob and have a pretty sexy collection going (do it with a record collector, they have 12"'s ;) ). Still a digital guy though, and have found so much music from so many different genre's this year - go listen to Kent NOW! - but I've had my fill of metalcore and punk which has literally made me so freaking happy at times (even if I'm still waiting for my fucking ETID record to arrive!!).
A day or so ago though I realised that music has kinda turned into a motivation for me now, a motivation to workout to: I find myself listening to music and feeling like I just need to slam through a workout, though this could be caused by the addiction I have with raging my body to its fullest and getting the best results. I used to be a pretty big dude, like 16stone at the age of 16 kinda big - I totally remember looking at a full-length mirror one day in Drama and realising just how big I was. So after a year or so, I bit the bullet and just started working out, I remember I started doing like 20 press ups and 20 sit-ups a night and thinking it was HUGE haha. After dedication and clearly seeing the change, not to mention constant remarks for friends, I kept on, pushing the numbers up and adding more and more till I got to where I am now; a 22 year old with actual definition that spends around 2 hours a night working out every area of my body. The fact that I have had this dedication and have been able to push through has not only impressed others but its impressed me. No matter what people say, anyone can literally do anything!!
Burn Halo are playing and they are fucking awesome!! These dudes need more fans and need to get recognized as the band that are slaying radio-rock/arena-rock better than anyone out there!
So what else, eh I'm away to eat a slab of Tesco value chocolate after this and watch Parks and Rec (seriously, April Ludgate (Aubrey Plaza) gets me so damn cranked, also watching Scott Pilgrim, which she's also in, does the same, I mean DAMN how fucking hawt is Ramona Flowers?!). Or actually I might watch The Simpsons cause I went and picked up Season 11 on DVD today, sure its not as good as say Season 6, 7, 8 or 9 but I actually love 11, and it was a great price so blow on that non-believers!!
Ah, Flyleaf's cover of "Stay (Faraway, So Close)" just came on and its beautiful, seriously the new singer of Flyleaf kinda sucks compared to the old one :/
I could talk about how I feel meh about the Uni course I'm doing now; I've been doing video games effectively for 5 years now, thats nearly a quarter of my life. Going into fourth year I am stocked though and looking forward to it but after, I dont know if I will get into games if Im honest. I'm just burnt out - I've done 3 years in Uni, a year in College and the last year of Secondary I had to create a game, so I created an interactive game of Snap (which fucking rocked btw!!) so thats a long-ass time to focus on one real subject. I look into the future and think what I'm gonna do, what I WANT to do and games is down the list. Now after maybe having a year or two out of games I might get the thirst for it and go for it - I'd love to put my degree and all to use after all.
I dont know, I've spent half an hour writing this and frankly I am starved and just want to KILL this chocolate - so maybe I'll end this here. I hope to pick up with the adventures of my life later on, so if you care keep a look out and if you dont, why the hell did you read all of this ya dingus!!
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