How Long Will I Hide Behind This Pen And How Long Will You Wait For Me; I Guess Until The Ink Runs Out

"if your not gonna ride the rocket, if your not gonna ride the rocket then get the fuck off!"

So today has been nothing but a total loss haha!
Like I seriously dont know how the hell its gotten to 20 to 10, I have done so little today really, but honestly I'm OK with it.  Sometimes all you need is just a day or two to yourself and just to get de-exhausted and just relax.  Its been nice for me to actually just be able to spend the last few days digesting the last six months and try and produce the real me out of it.

I think though I'm getting there, I'm sat here typing this out in elbow-length fingerless gloves and feeling super fashioncore and blasting Eighteen Visions (and different movie soundtracks, but that helps me write and do productive thangys).  I think for the longest time I've fallen into doing something that I was doing for years back in Secondary school, College and most of the first year of Uni: I'm trying to be this IDEA of a person, like trying to fulfill what I feel other peoples idea of me is, or what I SHOULD be like and act.  Thats stupid and just not right at all, not fun and just not me, which in the end was and kinda still is, the problem!

So, getting away from emotional stuff and all that jazz, I am still wholeheartedly obsessed with Batman Returns; I was able to win an amazing brand new Batman Returns tee in my size, legit like the only time I've ever seen a small on eBay.
What else, oh I bought a bunch of new JBWW stuff tonight because that awesome dude was giving away a free hand-numbered and hand-singed with orders of new stock...so you know, I kinda had to ;)

Ehhhh, apart from that stuff I think thats all thats going on with me.  As usual, away to rage out to a workout, stick on some 18V vinyl and then eat a slab of chocolate and watch Batman Returns!!

Peace out beetches!

p.s. An Aubrey Plaza gif because this post is lacking...