This has pretty much been my day today; screaming and shouting in agony!
My broken toe has decided to be all "fuck ya Sean, just gonna break more things!!" so now my toe is a mess and just killing me so damn much!
Also, I feel so fat - like really just so fat and gross today. I had ANOTHER full tub of ice-cream and I just hate myself for it and feel uber fat right now. I mean I KNOW that I'm really not that fat and all that, but man do I hate myself for gorging so damn much. Working tomorrow I know that atleast tomorrow I wont be tempted ha, but really I just feel so meh about food these days and just blah. I dont know, eating has become something that I have to do rather than something I enjoy doing; I eat to live, not live to eat!
Normally, with my new like relaxing view on working out I'd probably give myself the night off, what with it killing me to even lay a duvet on my feet but with this total insecurity I think I might just go ahead and slam through the rager and try and have it over and done with quickly so I can lay in bed and maybe/hopefully watch something. Didn't watch Batman Returns last night, was too late after I finished my workout so just played some old-time games on this great emulator site (game-oldies.com I think), playing the first game I ever played 20 years ago was fun; I sucked at it when I was 2 and I suck at it now, being 22...
So apart from bitching and moaning about my weight and pains things are actually going really good for me: I finally feel like the real me is back, like I feel like I did months ago and am totally fine I think, the few days to myself to just cleanse my mind and get back to the right frame of mind.
Ehhhh oh in a week I'll be going to this Collectormania thing that I am SO fucking amped for, legit super excited for it; dressing up as Han Solo and just cants wait to be in a new environment and have fun. Plus theres R2-D2 there so I'm SO getting a picture with him, not to mention theres a few wrestlers there that I'd like to meet and maybe get pics with.
Mmmmm I THINK thats me, and like today in a nutshell, in summary my toe hurts even more and I still have to wait a week to get surgery. I also feel fat, even if I know I'm really not, and I want to watch Batman Returns later on.
Ohhhhhh actually just remembered, today I found out that this classic wrestler, Road Warrior Animal is coming to Dundee and doing an autograph and picture session, awesome right?!
FUCKING NOT AWESOME!!!!
Cause for some fucking reason I have to go and work in Perth because of "reasons", and the day before I have to go to Alton Towers, a trip that frankly I dont want to go on and really dont think I can afford to - maybe if I say I cant go and that I want to save money for this year at Uni hopefully they'll be fine and wont miss me, I mean why the hell would they tbh. I would just rather sleep in my own bed, save the money that I'd end up spending, what would be like atleast £50, and just relax instead. I'd be awkward around these folks too, I mean I've only been working there for 3 weeks or so, not even a freaking month!!
ARGHHHHH I want to meet Road Warrior Animal dammit!!!!!!
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