So today, now, THE PRESENT!
Eh the last few days I have tried to just clear my head, try and get back to the me that I was proud to be a few months ago. Like I've said before, this summer has been weird and has changed me, and I'm afraid that its changed me for the worse, or tried to anyway!
I remember being the chilled dude, the happy guy that would make everyone laugh and just be an all-round fun guy - now though I do the opposite and seem to like bum peeps out and dont have fun, and even end up ruining things for other people. Thats not me and thats not fun!!
I'm finding myself back there, back to the chilled fun-loving dood I was not too long ago - sure I'm not fully there, that'll take some time but for the time-being I'm starting to get happier about shit.
I'm starting to just focus on myself again, doing what I want to do and not spending all my time waiting or being consumed by with people are texting me/facebooking me/twittering me, whatever. That shit doesn't matter at all - a person fully knows who their friends are and doesn't necessarily need constant reminders of it.
Stupid things were and have been bothering me for months, things like hearing from people everyday, and if not thinking there was some sort of problem; thats impossible and just simply unbearable too (for both parties).
Apart from all that pish, I dont know what else I've really been doing, I've been getting obsessed with Batman Returns tonight playing loads of the old console games, and listening to the score - might watch it later tonight after my workout.
Oh, and I've started eating like full tubs of ice-cream again and I hate myself for it - really but its just so nice and good. Meh, my workout kills it off so its all good!!
Welp thats pretty much it I think, another void into my life and head *I will warn people, I'm not normally this complex, its just a bad time recently, so dont get excited seeing these*
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